生活是美好的,爱情是甜蜜的,为了爱情人们愿意付出一切,然而我是个懦夫,我没勇气去争取那分真挚的爱情。在爱情和亲情之间,我选择了亲情,我恨我自己为什么那么傻,明知道是不能成功的,为什么还要去伤害别人呢。
我和英相识在高中的那个夏天,在校园里我们邂逅,然后我们相爱。这在高中是不能被人接受的,老师反对,父母也是极力阻止。然后我们不得不转入地下,很痛苦。在一起的时候还要顾及到那么那么多的说法。我们在一起走路,不能牵手,甚至还要保持中间能走过一个人的距离。平时都习惯用纸条来代替说话。终于熬到了高三,她的数学成绩不行,然后我每天都偷偷的和她去外面的茶馆里学习。可是代价太大了,我总是向家里要钱,终于被爸爸发现了这个秘密,然后爸爸去了我们班里找了她,我很痛苦,她是女生能承受这种挫折吗?可是她为了我们的未来,还是当作什么也没发生,只是以后我只能把写好的题目交给她。那时候我们就发誓要考到一个学校,而且要进同一个专业。在那最后的冲刺的日子里,我们互相鼓励,她的成绩尤其提高的特快,到后来的摸考数学甚至超过我很多分,我很高兴。我想只要我们坚持到最后,到了大学家里就不会反对了。只要我们用成绩证明我们不像其他的情侣那样,就一定能成功的。
高考成绩出来了,她比我高了24分,而我的成绩只能在省内选个重点,我们商量了很久,决定一起填湖大。把志愿表交了上去。最后我果然被湖大录取了,但是她却被录取到了武汉大学。那时侯我是很失望,发呆,难道这一切都是虚幻。。。。。。
她是哭着来找我的,在她的哭叙中,我明白了这都是我们分数差的太多了,她爸爸帮她改了志愿。于是我们就这样到了不同的学校。
在大学里,我们以为一切都过去了,前途光明。可是爸爸妈妈,却仍然反对,妈妈认为我们两个根本不在一个层次,将来肯定不能成的。而且看着我在大学不断的堕落,来了三次学校,苦口婆心的教育,可是我都不听,我不相信我们之间不成。我矛盾,我向妈妈解释了很多很多,寝室里经常是我在和妈妈吵架,我就是不明白他们怎么这么不开化,都什么时候了还这样。
多少个晚上我都是在痛苦中度过,也许我本可以不理睬那么多。就装作分手了,以后毕业了在去说服爸爸妈妈,不是就可以少了这么多烦恼吗。终于姐姐来到了学校,告诉我妈妈因为我的事情在工作的时候出了意外,我只得马上收拾东西回去,妈妈被车撞了,躺在床上,很虚弱。但是看到我回去还是很高兴,然后又是问那件事,我很负气,于是没在理睬他们,我一个人悄悄的回到了学校。姐姐随后也到了学校,她什么也没多说,只是问了我:难道在你的心里,自己的母亲就比不上一个可以说根本不认识的人吗?我很心痛,是的,是母亲养育了我,平时对我最好的是母亲,在我生病的时候也是她在我身边照顾。。。。。。
我没有选择了,分手是痛苦的,希望就这样落空了。后来我听话她很委靡,很失落,学习上没动力,一个学期挂了5科,一点也不像原来的她。。。。。。
我伤害了一个本是优秀的人,至今我还是深深的思念着她,我是懦夫。
今天看到一篇英文,更是伤感:
I never see the tears that she is about to cry
----Instead she turns her head to hide them!
I never see how her shoulders are sagging from heavy burdens.
----Instead she gives me those shoulders to cry on!
I never see the ached in her heart when I rebel
----Instead she gives me more patience and love!
I never see the aches in her hands from grasping and holding on when she feels like giving up.
----Instead she folds those hands and prays more!
I never see the fears she has of being a \"disappointment\".
----Instead she prays more power and a sound mind!
She is my mother,a great women! She has told me so many things during my lifetime; she shows me how to walk without hands;she shows me how to roll with troubles;she shows me how to treat people......
she shows me every thing i should know in my life.Here are the philosophies I've learned from my mother:
Avoid negative people,place,things and habits
Believe in yourself.
Consider things from every angle
Don't give up and don't give in
Enrich your life today,yesterday is history and tomorrow is mystery
Family and friends are hidden treasuers,seek them and enjoy their riches.
Give it more than you planed to......
Hang on to your dreams
Ignore those who try to discourage you
Just do it
Keep trying no matter how hard it seems.
Look before you leap ,live well,love lots and laugh often.
Make it happen,don't just talk.
Never lie ,treat and steal.
Open your eyes and see things as they really are
Practice makes perfect
Quitters never win and winners never quit
Rome wasn't bulit in a day,read learn and study every importants things in your life
Stop procrastinating ,don't hesited to do the things you want to
Take control of your own destiny
Understand yourself in order to better understand others
visualize it ,use your imagination
Want it more than anything
Xcellerate your effects
You are unique ,noting can replace you
Zero in your targit,and go for it.
It's never to late for us to say \"I love you \" to our mother.
在亲情和爱情之间我选择了亲情,在女朋友和母亲之间我选择了让母亲不受伤害,我很自私,现在还是这样,我痛苦,人为什么会这样呢?本来是都可以得到的,可是却是这样。。。。。。 |